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Good evening (or morning!!)--
The notorious Foxy has designed a chatroom on tanyadanielle.de that even I, a computer retard, can figure out!! I'm very excited. Thanks SO MUCH, Foxy! Maybe a chat tomorrow??? Please check the Playhouse bulletin board for details--- XXOO Tanya

Hello-- I just got back in town and am right now sitting down to enjoy yesterday's hot new photoset of Kim Chambers- mmmmmmm! It was shot during a custom video shoot that she and I did. Have a great day! -- XXOO Tanya

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Good evening-- I'm sure you are stopping by to look at naked entertainment, but I thought I would share a link to a news article that gave me some grim satisfaction. Please don't copy and paste it if you are here, as expected, to merely enjoy nude women- this information will likely kill your mood.
Of course many of you will think that my sentiments are inappropriate here, but if you do read this story you might well agree with me that this fucker deserved to die.

Pedophile Ex-Priest Is Killed in Prison
http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/ap/20030824/ap_on_re_us/church_abuse_geoghan_killed

Good evening,
There's a hot new photoset of the lovely Kim Chambers and myself getting VERY friendly in the Playhouse tonight. These were taken during a custom video shoot last month.........mmmmmmmm, nice memories! Please enjoy them!-- XXOO Tanya

Good morning! Yesterday on the Playhouse bulletin board I mentioned www.HollywoodIsCalling.com. No one seemed as amused by it as I am. Perhaps everyone had heard of it already. On the off chance that someone else is uninitiated and will be as delighted by its charms as I am, please brighten up your morning and go visit www.HollywoodIsCalling.com.--XXOO Tanya

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Good morning! Today's photo comes courtesy of Straddle Productions. Please see their link on my "links" page. They are known for wrestling matches featuring the "face-sit" pin. Haven't heard of it? Well, it doesn't adhere to NCAA or FILA guidelines, but, nonetheless, it is still a bona-fide match-ending move. Just think if it was implemented in amateur wrestling.........the matches would be far more exciting! Probably because the guys would kill each other if the alternative was having their opponent's testicles placed in their faces.-- XXOO Tanya

Good afternoon,
I just posted some stuff here that ended up in the wrong place. I won't bother to explain why but it is included in the diary entry of 8/03/03 instead of today's entry where I wanted it. So, since no one would probably see it otherwise, I am re-posting it here under today's date.


Sunday, August 03, 2003
 
Hello,
The following thoughts were exchanged on the Playhouse bulletin board between myself and a member right after I put up my musings here on the front page in the post of 7/29/03. (Please just scroll down here if you want to read that 7/29 post.) I thought his reaction was important and provided a profoundly honest perspective. Here is his response to my statements of 7/29, and my feedback to his words:
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Date 7/31/2003 - 10:02 PM
Comment: Hey Tanya, I was wondering about your last post regarding sexually confident women and how men degrade or attempt to control. I feel that the men are afraid they can't perform to her satisfaction and are attempting to divert their fear of not being good enough by degrading or insulting or even controling. To be honest I probably would be afraid myself because i've never truly met a woman so confident but I would love to try to please her and enjoy the time together. I might fail at first but i would be willing to work to do better. Just my two cents worth. (name withheld)
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Date 7/31/2003 - 11:13 PM
Name Tanya
Comment: (Name withheld), I think you hit the nail on the head with your words. A lot of men nurse those same kind of fears to varying degrees, but they shouldn't. It's not possible to fail when you are sensitive and caring and try to please your partner. Being receptive and responsive are the most important things. When I speak of sexually confident women, I'm referring to women who enjoy their bodies and enjoy sex without felling guilty about it. I'm not referring to superficial women who expect a lover with the physique of a gay porn star and the endurance to match. Good sex is about both mutual respect and mutual enjoyment. I think a lot of couples jump into bed too quickly. There would be much more of a comfort level between them if they developed other aspects of their relationship first. That sounds ironic coming from someone who does porno, but that's how I've always let relationships progress in my personal life. I know men have a lot of ego in regards to their anatomy, libido and "performance ability," but they should never have anything to worry about if they take the time to get to know a woman and there's more involved than just a one night stand. Most women don't have unrealistic expectations just because they like sex. They care just as much about satisfying their lover, and they have no interest in judging him. *****

A lot of dialogue, such as the above, that has come up on the bulletin board has been very thought-provoking and interesting. I honestly had not anticipated the degree of interaction that I have come to experience daily with all of you wonderful members. Joanne, the terrific webmaster here, had included the bulletin board when she built the Playhouse earlier this year. Back then I thought it would be just a minor addendum to the video/ photo content. I am so happy that it has evolved to such an extent where so many members (and myself!) are actively posting their thoughts and feelings. It is very gratifying and heartwarming to belong to such a community. --- XXOO Tanya

Good evening! Yes, that is the incredibly lovely Silvia Saint in the photo of the day today. I was VERY, VERY FORTUNATE that I got to have sex on film with her before she retired. She's even wearing a pair of my panties in that photo. Yes, I still have them.
I had always admired her beauty and amazing butt from afar so it was great to work with her. Even better than I had anticipated. She's even more gorgeous in person than in photos, and she had a very dignified, intelligent air to her. Of course she is extremely HOT and SEXUAL and has a beautiful pussy. I could describe eveything about her in superlatives. I often think back on the great hour and a half that she and I shared..........MMMMMMMMMMMM--- XXXOOO Tanya

Good evening,
Jessica Camery is in the Playhouse as of yesterday. I'm sure you'll agree that she looks like a hot, fun girl to play with!!
Has everyone heard of Mary Carey's plans to run for Governor of California in the event that current Gov. Davis is recalled? My friend Brian, King of all E-mail, sent me this a few days ago:


The Bay Area has yet to offer any candidates with the "surreal appeal"
of
downstate figures like Gallagher, a comedian known for smashing melons
with
a sledgehammer; Hustler magazine publisher and longtime free-speech
crusader Larry Flynt, 61; and porn star Mary Carey, 22, who calls for
levying a tax on breast implants -- "From Beverly Hills alone, we
should
bring in millions in tax revenue," she says, claiming to be
"all-natural"
herself -- and making lap dances a tax-deductible business expense.

Mary Carey for Governor!! --- XXOO Tanya

Hello,
The following thoughts were exchanged on the Playhouse bulletin board between myself and a member right after I put up my musings here on the front page in the post of 7/29/03. (Please just scroll down here if you want to read that 7/29 post.) I thought his reaction was important and provided a profoundly honest perspective. Here is his response to my statements of 7/29 and my feedback to his words:

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Date 7/31/2003 - 10:02 PM


Comment: Hey Tanya, I was wondering about your last post regarding sexually confident women and how men degrade or attempt to control. I feel that the men are afraid they can't perform to her satisfaction and are attempting to divert their fear of not being good enough by degrading or insulting or even controling. To be honest I probably would be afraid myself because i've never truly met a woman so confident but I would love to try to please her and enjoy the time together. I might fail at first but i would be willing to work to do better. Just my two cents worth. (name withheld)



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Date 7/31/2003 - 11:13 PM
Name Tanya
Comment: (Name withheld), I think you hit the nail on the head with your words. A lot of men nurse those same kind of fears to varying degrees, but they shouldn't. It's not possible to fail when you are sensitive and caring and try to please your partner. Being receptive and responsive are the most important things. When I speak of sexually confident women, I'm referring to women who enjoy their bodies and enjoy sex without felling guilty about it. I'm not referring to superficial women who expect a lover with the physique of a gay porn star and the endurance to match. Good sex is about both mutual respect and mutual enjoyment. I think a lot of couples jump into bed too quickly. There would be much more of a comfort level between them if they developed other aspects of their relationship first. That sounds ironic coming from someone who does porno, but that's how I've always let relationships progress in my personal life. I know men have a lot of ego in regards to their anatomy, libido and "performance ability," but they should never have anything to worry about if they take the time to get to know a woman and there's more involved than just a one night stand. Most women don't have unrealistic expectations just because they like sex. They care just as much about satisfying their lover, and they have no interest in judging him. *****

A lot of dialogue, such as the above, that has come up on the bulletin board has been very thought-provoking and interesting. I honestly had not anticipated the degree of interaction that I have come to experience daily with all of you wonderful members. Joanne, the terrific webmaster here, had included the bulletin board when she built the Playhouse earlier this year. Back then I thought it would be just a minor addendum to the video/ photo content. I am so happy that it has evolved to such an extent where so many members (and myself!) are actively posting their thoughts and feelings. It is very gratifying and heartwarming to belong to such a community. --- XXOO Tanya

Hello! Yes, that is me in today's photo of the day. I think it was taken in the mid-90's or so. It was featured in a magazine layout in a publication that featured Latin women. I vaguely remember some caption on the cover of the magazine that said something to the effect of: " Hot Mamacitas Beggin' for your Burrito!"--- XXOO Tanya

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Hello! Today's photo of the day is a behind-the-scenes look at a calendar shoot that was for www.thewildgoose.com.
Have I mentioned Zdenka Podkapova in the Playhouse? Of course I have! She is SOOOOOO HOT!!!!! --- XXOO Tanya

Hi again! I posted the following thoughts on the Playhouse bulletin board maybe a month or so ago. The subject was on my mind again tonight and I reread what I had written and decided to put it up here with some modifications. Here it is:


Good afternoon! Thanks for your reactions to my last
(really long) post. It was nice to be able to let all
that out. Funny, I was reading something later last
night and came across this quote:

"We live in an atmosphere of shame. We are ashamed of
everything that is real about us; ashamed of
ourselves, our relatives, of our incomes, of our
accents, of our opinions, of our experience, just as
we are ashamed of our naked skins."-George Bernard
Shaw

Those words struck me as I read them because, in a
strange way, clothing is just another pretense. It's
just one more way people hide their true selves. It
has always seemed unhealthy to me when people ascribe
moral significance to nudity. I remember finding a
"dirty magazine" when I was young and getting caught
by my mother. She was horrified and told me what
"filth" it was. I asked her why. "It's wrong, it's
just WRONG!" was the only answer she could give me. I
must have been just 6 or 7, but somehow I knew at that
moment that the women in that magazine were being
vilified merely for displaying their sensuality and
not being ashamed of it. I knew they weren't really
doing anything wrong or bad.
Here and there as a kid I would always manage to
sneak peeks at other adult magazines, and I was glad
that the women in them were viewed in a negative
light. I was jealous of them and felt that I could
never be that pretty; I wanted a reason to dislike
them. In my heart of hearts I knew that they did not
deserve to be disparaged, but I was glad that society
did disparage them. How dare they be so glamorous and
bold and get all that attention without paying a
price!
As I got older my friends and I would have
hypothetical discussions along the lines of: "Would
you pose nude in Playboy if they paid you a million
dollars?" I would always very emphatically say "No,
never!" It was easy for me to say that because I never, ever
thought that I would have the opportunity; I
wasn't pretty enough and I didn't have big breasts. I
used to try and think of reasons why the women in the
magazines were contemptible. There really weren't any.
It was a big thing for me to finally accept my own
hypocrisy and admit to myself that I would love to be
in a magazine. I was still young and I thought it
would give me some type of validation in those teenage
years.
Any young girl can see the fascination men have with
nude or provocative women, and they can just as readily
discern the negativity with which many men view these
same women. It's all about power, and many men do not
want women to become too confident about their bodies
or their sexuality. If they can convince a woman that
relishing her own erotic nature will degrade her then
the man stays in control. It's sad that so many women
buy into that notion, and that "tramp," "floozy," and
"slut" are still such common words in our language.
It's sadder still that women use those words to
describe each other. As I wrote last night, I don't
champion wild promiscuity, but women should not have
to feel guilty about exploring their sexuality. Or
feel guilty about displaying their nude bodies in suitable circumstances. After all, X-rated material is always clearly labelled in this country so no one is forced to view explicit photos if they don't want to.
Appearing in an adult magazine was not the fulfilling thing I had imagined it would be as a young teenager, but I certainly have never regretted my decision to do so. Like the typical teenager I was unsure if I was attractive enough or compared favorably with other women in the appearance department. I thought that being selected for a nude layout would really boost my self esteem. On the day of my first shoot it quickly became obvious that the resulting photos were going to be the culmination of artfully applied makeup, well-styled hair, careful lighting, strategic camera angles, and padding in my bra. The person in that first set of photos looked nothing like me. It was a revelation.
Over the years I've heard the criticisms that the models in the magazines are "artificial." Some people decry the fact that the photos set unrealistic expectations for women. Well, yeah. The same commentary can be applied to the models that appear in Macy's catalogues, TV commercials, and music videos. It's all lighting, makeup, and posing. Most people are hip to that these days. Glossy, impossibly perfect images of women appear in every aspect of entertainment and sales. Those images help sell magazines, products, and everything else you can think of.
It's unfair that nude photos are always singled out as the ones that portray women in a pejorative light. Why should it be negative that someone looks at a sexy photo and masturbates? The men or women who are pleasuring themselves to these photos are in fact viewing the models as sex objects at that moment, but....... so what? Every reasoning individual knows that the naked woman has other aspects to her person besides her sex appeal. They just don't need to take that into account when they are jacking themselves off. It's not as if the woman is standing right there trying to carry on a conversation with them and be taken seriously.
Masturbation material helps provide some of the safest sex around and it is unfathomable to me that so many people denounce it. It's quick, easy gratification where no one gets their feelings hurt, becomes pregnant, or catches a disease. Yet so many people try to pretend that the models are "dirty" or have no self-respect.
Looking back at the years I have posed nude and done porno I can honestly say that I don't feel that I have compromised myself at all. I don't expect to have any regrets over my former profession when I'm older. Still, maybe I will encounter some people who will condemn me for some of the work I did. Who knows.
One thing I learned early on in the adult industry was that people never had much leverage with me if I was not ashamed of my sexuality. There were a few times in life when I briefly lost sight of that, but I always regrouped. I suppose that my reason for writing these words tonight is to encourage anyone reading them to reexamine their attitudes about women and sexuality. Are you one of those people who is intimidated by sexually confident ladies?
Women are entitled to enjoy and express their carnal nature without feeling guilty. Posing naked is not indicative of a character failing. All women should feel comfortable making personal choices regarding their own bodies, whatever those choices may be. --- XXOO Tanya

Hello! Zdenka Podkapova is in the Playhouse and she is AMAZING!!-- XXOO Tanya

Good morning! There is a steamy (literally!) new video clip in the Playhouse for your enjoyment. Today's photo of the day was taken a few months ago during a custom video shoot.
Speaking of custom videos, (and custom photos for that matter), tomorrow cameraman Lou and I are going to be shooting several custom orders. We usually try to shoot a number of them in one day so we can give everyone a bit of a break on the prices. Once he and I have the studio, the lights, the wardrobe, and the time set aside we can afford to shoot them for a little less money so it's cost-effective for everyone. Tomorrow, (Tuesday the 29th), we have extra time to shoot some more requests. Should you happen to have any interest in a last-minute custom video or custom photo set please contact Lou at cuelvideo@hotmail.com. You can also visit his site at
http://www.geocities.com/cuelvideo/mainpg.html.
As I said, we will give you a break on the prices listed on his site if you want to order a custom shoot for tomorrow. Payments would have to be received by 12 noon PST tomorrow via www.paypal.com. Please be spontaneous and contact Lou for all other info!! Have a great day-- XXOO Tanya